I live! And some random thoughts for you.

I’m baaaaaaaaaaaack. Did you miss me? Probably not. But it’s cool. I’ll let that slide. 🙂

So a few things on my mind on this hot as fuck July day here in NYC. The humidity is what’s really doing people in. Ugh, just ugh. Well, let’s get to the fun stuff.

I saw Spider-Man: Homecoming. Good movie. Tom Holland does a good job as young Peter. Michael Keaton was AWESOME as Vulture (even thought he was never called that). Bokeem Woodbine has always been a steadily good actor, and his role as Keaton’s second in command confirms this. Someone get him a feature part, or at least a co-star role in something with a budget.

And why was everyone bitching about Zendaya as MJ? I think she did a great job having been given a way too over the top emo character. Seriously, they really needed to tone that shit down. Less emo, more real emotion and she was set. And was Ned supposed to be Ned Leeds? Perhaps there’s a hint of a Hobgoblin appearance in a future movie. I’m down for that.

AND THAT CONEY ISLAND SCENE. YES! YES! YES!

Also watched the Power Rangers reboot movie. I normally don’t watch those things, since I hate reboots (Hollywood, gimme original material, FFS!), but it wasn’t too bad overall. But they did a huge disservice to Zordon by making him such a dick. -50 points for that. And the Rangers armor looked like bootleg Iron Man armor. Ug-ly.

The new Doctor has been announced, and it’s a woman. I lost track of Doctor Who before Season 11 really started, so I have no personal opinion on her casting. Let her talent determine her reception. But there are the fuckwits who are losing their tiny minds over the fact the new Doctor regenerated into a woman.

Really? Fucking REALLY? Here’s a show about time travel, aliens, vampires, semi-sentient phone booths, genocidal robots, statues that will kill you if you’re not looking at them, and a woman in love with a female fucking reptilian, and THIS is what you’re pissed about? Fuck outta here with that shit.

And there’s the other side, who think this doesn’t go far enough to give women a bigger role in tv. Yo, the Doctor’s archenemy is now a woman, the most recent companion was a black lesbian, and now we have a female Doctor. The fuck else do you want? Change takes time, and the show is already ahead of the curve. Hakuna your tatas and enjoy what’s being done. And yes, I’m looking at you, Anita Sarkeesian.

I’m also officially not buying Diablo 3 for PC anytime soon. Fuck you, Blizzard, for releasing untested, unfinished content for money and immediately having to patch it because you mental midgets don’t know how to playtest your shit. Learn how to debug your product, you blithering idiots.

I’ve kept up my writing, though now it’s being spread across 7 different stories at the moment. Yes, I can’t focus on any one of them, but I am writing, so that’s the more important part.

And my ability to focus on this is at an end, so I’ll catch y’all later.

Say it if it’s worth saving me.

I hit karaoke last night. A friend’s son was celebrating his 21st birthday, and she decided his first official bar outing should be with the semi-professional drunks she knows and loves. It’s a good choice, as it gets him to learn his limits and tolerances with people he knows are safe to be around. Parenting done right, to be honest.

As is wont to occur at karaoke, the love songs popped up at the end of the night. And as I listened to them, as I enjoyed the sound and the lyrics and the people signing along (myself included), I came to a realization:

It’ll never be me singing those songs to my girlfriend, or fiancée, or wife.

They say that the definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and thinking you’ll get a different result. They’re right. 20 some odd years of dating, of searching for She Who Is Right For Me, and I’ve barely come close. So what’s the purpose of continuing to do the same thing only to get the same shitty result? What is it about dating and romance that supposedly makes it different?

It’s because humanity is so desperate to be with someone to avert loneliness that they’ll willingly drive themselves nuts with this in the hope of eventually breaking the pattern of heartache and loss. And all they’re doing is setting themselves up for more of the same, just in the future in smaller doses. If you look at that from a strictly logical point of view, it’s completely ridiculous.

And after what went down with Ms. No-Show, I have no faith in it. At all. There’s no point in investing time and energy into a zero sum game when I have far more important things to handle.

And you know what? I’ll be happy to restart dating…..once She Who Is Right For Me gets off her ass, finds me, and convinces me why I should give her a chance. I’m not going to put in the effort to impress her. SHE can impress ME. After all, I keep hearing all this yapping about feminism wanting equality, yet it does not seem to extend to dating. Well, let’s see that change. Let’s see women ask men out on dates and do all the things guys do for women to impress them. Let’s see the script get flipped.

But it won’t.